Thankful Thursday

I'm super excited about this post! I'm linking up for the first time with The Fontenot Four for Thankful Thursday. A few months ago while diving into the book "1000 gifts" by Anna Voskamp I stumbled upon an app that went with the book. In this app you could document the "gifts" of your day. It was amazing to just sit and log gifts at random and to see everything as gifts!

It was also perfect timing.

When Baby G was born, I had him in my arms for all of 10 minutes. I was woken a few hour later and told I wasn't aloud to have my baby, and he was going to have to be taken to the NNICU at a different hospital.

Terrifying doesn't being to explain the feelings that pulsed through me. So I counted.

1. Doctors that new what they where doing
2. Nurses to give me a passing smiling
3. A smooth delivery
4. Baby G
5. Friends that drop everything to come sit
6. Sleeping pills (yes that was a gift!)

The list just kept going. A list that by the end of it all included chest tubes small enough for newborns, the beeping of Baby G respirator,  not being at the hospital when his lung collapsed, not being there when he was intubated. 

Thankful doesn't cut it. 

Watching your child go through that is something that doesn't leave you. For me, its something that still wakes me up in the middle of the night. Something that every time I look at Baby G, I'll see that moment, with tubes sticking out of him. Those moments, those big moments, I'm thankful for the little things. 

Wanna link up for Thankful Thursday?